Day of Silence: success!

We fuckin' did it.

Me, Bella, Sky, and Emi

(all their blogs are on the "my favorite blogs" page)

I like girls! (day of silence)

Hold onto your strap-ons people, it's time for a serious post.

April 11th is the official 2014 Day of Silence. I participated in this last year, and I'll be doing it again this year, and the year after that, and every year until equality is achieved in the LGBT community.

Now, I am not a lesbian. I am what is commonly referred to as pansexual. I don't really feel like explaining in a big ass paragraph what the definition of pansexual is- I let the internet do that for me.

Now, the fact that I live in Utah, essentially the single most bigott-filled state in the US, makes this particular day all the more relevant. A lot of people in my school think that this day is insignificant and stupid, and that it will not do anything. These assholes seem to be missing the point entirely. The point of The Day of Silence is to raise awareness for the LGBT community, mostly teens, who feel that the only way to escape bullying, discrimination, and prejudice is to be silent and hide their true self. People often don't understand the fact that it's immensely difficult to come out as gay, lesbian, or bisexual when you're just a teenager. It becomes even more difficult in a place like Utah, where same-sex love is frowned upon. 

I want to live in a world where people can go anywhere in the world and feel safe and happy marrying whoever the fuck they feel like marrying. Hell, maybe one day I'll find a sexy lady and I'll want to put a ring on it. By the time I'm ready to put a ring on it, it'd better be fucking legal all across the world for me to put a god damn ring on it. 

Bullsh*t Of The Day (BSOTD)

BSOTD is a thing that I just decided I'm going to do periodically. Just as a warning, if you're a very conservative right-wing republican, this post is probably going to be very offensive, so you'd better get your ass to church and cry to Jesus.

Today's bullshit is a little something called Anti-Same Sex Marriage.
If you oppose same sex marriage, I automatically hate you. Now, I'm not talking about religious people who keep to themselves about their beliefs about the definition of marriage. I live in Utah, which is one of the world's centers of bigotry, and let me tell you as the most liberal, open-minded atheist in the world; some people who believe marriage is between a man and a woman are very nice people. I've met quite a few since I've moved here, and as long as they love everyone and keep their beliefs to themselves instead of holding back the progression of our society, everything's cool. These are not the people I'm talking about when I say "people who oppose same sex marriage". 

When I say "people who oppose same sex marriage" or anything related to that, I'm talking about one of the world's most accurate stereotypes. I'm talking about middle-aged white Christians who honestly believe that two human beings in love are going to spark God's PMS and the world will surely plunge into a hellish apocalypse all because a lady and another lady put a ring on it, or because a dude and a dude kissed each other goodnight.

Let's disprove some bigots' beliefs, shall we?

So what you're getting at is that single mothers and fathers are going to raise malfunctioning kids. Therefor, if a man leaves his wife or if a wife leaves her husband or if one of the parents of the child dies, we should automatically take away the child and give it to a married, straight couple, because that is the only way a child will be able to survive in the world.

Yeah, you're right. Unless the two men love each other and are spouses.

Unless all homosexuals work for Target, my bullshit meter is off the charts.

OH GOD! TWO HUMANS, BOTH WITH VAGINAS, ARE IN LOVE! SWEET CHRIST! AND THEY'RE MARRIED? DOES THIS MEAN THEY'RE GONNA RUB THEIR VAGINAS TOGETHER? I DON'T APPROVE OF THAT BECAUSE IT IS DIRECTLY AFFECTING MY LIFE! THE WORLD IS ENDING! CALL THE GOVERNMENT!

You are entirely correct, my dear fellow human. And that has absolutely nothing to do with love.

See, this is what really pisses me off. People are getting love and reproduction completely mixed up. You might as well say that infertile couples should be banned too, because they can't make their own babies.

Oh, sweet glob. Where do I start with this one?

-love is not immoral.

-love is beautiful and completely necessary. 

-you need to invest in an imbecile-to-english dictionary.

You got it. Kids, you were all made by a penis and a vagina. Sex Ed class dismissed. But seriously lady, kids don't know how babies are made in the first place, and they also don't give a damn. They all still believe in cooties, for glob's sake.

If you think that same sex marriage is immoral but killing people is not, then I got news for you; you, my friend, are completely fucking insane.

................................What?

Look, people who don't like same sex marriage; you are basing this off a book that was written thousands of years ago. This is the same book that says "God" will punish you if you eat shrimp, wear clothing of more than one fabric, and most importantly, says to love everybody. I'm not religious, I don't believe in a higher power of any sort. However, if I did, I sure as hell wouldn't worship one that punishes love. That's what marriage is. Love. Marriage is between two consenting human beings who love each other so much that they have decided to commit themselves specifically to that other human being for the rest of their life.

So please, shut the fuck up, same sex marriage opposing dipshits. 

A life? Ha, I don't have one of those.

I seriously have almost no life.

As a teenager, I am in the midst of my prime. However, I choose to waste this time doing a bunch of unworthy shit.

My days consist of large amounts of making/listening to music, school, homework, texting people, facebook, youtube, and being stressed nearly to the point of stabbing myself in the eye. I hardly ever hang out with people, because my priorities are homework and music. After I finish my homework, which takes several hours, I play piano and guitar for another several hours. That's completely by choice, I don't even take music lessons and I haven't since I was 11. After all that, it's usually midnight, so I'm tired. I get into bed, text people explaining to them that I was too busy music-ing and homework-ing to hang out, text Boyfriend, go on facebook (which I hate, I don't know why I do that), and watch random crap on youtube. Then I go to sleep around 1 or 2 in the morning. I wake up at 6 and continue this cycle.

This affects my appearance. Sometimes I wake up ready for the day and I feel relatively okay, and I get dressed and do my hair and makeup without too much of a problem. However, most days, I wake up feeling like I just got hit by a truck. Lifting a damn hairbrush is a monumental task for me. I usually end up going to school like this:

So, I'm never in the mood to actually go outside or hang out with people. My life is one of the most boring things ever. Then, with all the schoolwork, my mood is always just like NO. NOO. FUCK YOU. FUCK THIS. FUCK EVERYTHING. I'M TAKING A NAP.

The most exciting things I do are write music, dye my hair, and smoke certain things occasionally. (disclaimer: don't do drugs kids, drugs are bad, if you do drugs then you're bad, etc etc). I'm not even joking, setting up plans with my friends is one of the most anxiety filled, daunting activities that I've ever been faced with. I love all my friends, I swear. But I'm also the most enormous introvert on the face of the planet. After seeing everyone in school, the idea of getting out of bed, getting ready, and appearing enthusiastic about moving my body, does not interest me in the least.

Essentially, I could certainly have a life if I wanted to. I just don't.

A somewhat humorous lecture from a pansexual high school freshman

So I'm a relatively young person. Hell, I'm the youngest person in my grade. And I just learned what pansexual is. And, umm....yeah, hi there, greetings from a pansexual!

Let me explain.
I'm not one of those teenage girls who fits into the following category:
Woah guyz. I kissed a girl! Like, not full on makeout. We just kinda touched lips a little. And then I smacked her butt! LOLOLOLOL!!!!1! #datass
Haha I think I like girls now. I would never have sex with one though, ewweyyy!! But yeah, I'm bi everyonneeee ;3
No.
Dear sweet muffintops, NO. 

When I was a kid, nobody ever explained to me that girls and boys "naturally" go together. I liked both equally, because I didn't know what genitals were either, and I just knew they were all humans, so I crushed on both genders.
THEN 2ND GRADE CAME ALONG!
I had a huge crush on this chick. Not gonna name names. Let's call her Fergi!
So I liked this Fergi girl. And then, one day, my friend asked me who I liked, and I said Fergi.
She flipped her shit.
OH MY GOSH GIRLS DON'T LIKE GIRLS THAT'S WROONNGGG
EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!
So I acted like I was kidding, and I named some random nose-picking boy who I hardly knew and said that I actually liked him.
I didn't know why she flipped out, so I kept it to myself. It didn't particularly bother me, I actually thought she was weird for freaking out on me.
As the years went by, I learned that girls and boys like eachother and if a girl likes a girl or a boy likes a boy, they're weird. I also learned what gay and straight and bi meant. Recently I learned what pansexual is, and I was like holy corndogs, that's me.

Apparently, to lots of people, it's weird that I (and tons of other people) don't just like boys, I like people. I don't care who you are, or what your genitals are, if you make me happy, I'm gonna freaking love you. Why is that weird? Seriously, somebody needs to explain this fuckery to me.

I also found that people judge you too much on what you enjoy.

Oh, you're a concert pianist, a singer, an artist, a straight A students, an astronaut, and a unicorn? Holy shit, you're the best!
Wait, you also like people with the same genitals as you? Oh, gross. You suck now.

That's how I interpret people who don't like the LGBTwhteverthefuck community.

The point of this post is that it's stupid to surpress who you actually are. Are you an apple-juggling lesbian unicycling circus elephant on the inside? Good, go ahead and show the world.


HEY YOU!
STAY YOU!